No time for love, no time for idle chat, no time. All work and some play.... i have to maintain balance because i am an extremist I always go too far. I am so focused, so determined to be the star I know I am. I am so ready. and I have a lot of work to do. Its funny...I've been studying certain things for years, and they never took... and now because I'm ready...things are just picking up. so easily. musically. I'm learning piano, i'll be learning guitar, I'm getting better at recording, pretty soon i'll be making my own beats and recording. I'm so much better at harmonies, and creating backgrounds, I'm vocally arranging my own songs...practice does make perfect...my voice is dramatically improving...yay me!!! I'm taking a flexibility and strengthening class at the NY Circus Arts Center. I'm bout to be the baddest bitch... correction... i am the baddest bitch. It would be so great to have the special someone but shit, I'm so over it. From being the best good girl to the best bad girl...it don't seem to be happening for me, and I really dont have the time anymore... its the same shit different guy... maybe I'm the weirdo but whatevs...cant really care anymore. So for some reason right now, my heart is sold on working so hard and giving my all to the cause of my art, my world, my life. I'm so lazy sometimes...probably because I'm highly intelligent and things come so easily and naturally for me, I dont have to work hard....but I'm starting to see... being lazy makes me good... but working hard could make me the icon of my generation.... and for the first time...i actually care... I want to be the best... i never cared before... but now, I realize , I am blessed by God...and i want to reach my potetial, my full potential, and I dont want to spare anyone the pleasure of my presence.
Its funny, phase 2 is all about networking, and I am so not in the socializing mood right now, but hey .... I can do it. I can do anthing and everything. Its an amazing thing i'm realizing about myself. You ever one day wake up , look in the mirror and realize how amazing you are... just all the way around... I think thats whats happening to me... not in a cocky, egotistical way, but in a sincere, blessed, graceful, humble, gracious way. I am so pleased with my self. And it feels good to feel this way, secure and confident.
My birthday is coming up... no idea what to do...i usually love to do it big with a lot of folks...but i'm feeling so wanna be by myself mood right now. I think I'll just plan the perfect day for myself by myself... maybe do something with syhaya later...idk
Sassy koolade is poppin, Valerie finished the first script. Great sript, its gonna take a lot to pull it off. So now we are focused on casting and finding filming locations.
And lastly, Supremes, annoying cuz its taking so long, but good none the less because I am not ready to go on tour just yet. One girl might quit, so we'll have to replace her re-teach the harmonies and we have to choreograph the dances.....oh hell
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