Vision getting more specific

1. Producing a Short Film/Feature Starring me. Looking through Lopez's Scripts, selecting one and getting to work.

2. Creating my own one woman/ 2 women show/ standup comedy routine. -Comedy and music.

3. Creating my own artistic community of actors passionate and ready to work for their careers, collectively moving forward.

4.Creating my own spiritual community and network. Events where we learn about a specific Spiritual topic, small party gatherings, building ourselves and each other up toward spiritual growth. Filming the Q& A as a web series. A blog with a directory of individual people and places in NY spiritual community.

Formations of Goals

I had been doing for the sake of doing the past year.

Now I will do with a clear vision and a truthful passion to sustain me.

I know I want to be an actress and Producer. Greater preference to film than theatre.

I also am very interested in Spirituality.

1)write 90minute film, produce it and film it, and star in it as well (of course).

2) mediation affirmation CDs with candles, crystals, and herb kits.

3) Affirmation, Goal setting, and extracting False belief instructional inspirational video.

One thing this past year has given me was confidence that I can do it myself, better than those who were employing me (with half ass standards )"trying to do it". Also it put me in contact with very helpful talented individuals: Lopez Williams, Big Foot Lee, B Heston, and a multitude of others. It also taught me that working with others on specific task can be mind blowing, but I for my over all objective I don't need to hold myself back for unqualified people to catch up. Work with others who can elevate me, or at the very least sustain and maintain at my level.

Thank you Lord for everything you've given me, how could I ever be blind to my countless blessings.

Inner Game of Tennis

SO I've been doing some reading. I saw my plans for action for acting wasn't working, so I decided to study success and the fundemental principals. I started by re-reading my book, "the ultimate secrets of self confidence", which inturn inspired me to re-visit this success blog and change my approach by documenting spiritual technique and basic principles, affirmations, visualizations, meditations, etc. During this time I discovered Jivamukti Yoga, which I really identify with and already see the bennefits, (all except with not eating meat, the (vegan thing-I tried) doesn't work well for me.)

Then I moved on to the Inner Game of Tennis and recieved an emphiphany. I am so focused on what I need to improve, focused on what I don't have and what I need, its such a habit of thinking for me I don't know how to escape it ...yet! but I need to just forget all this bull shit and do it, with what I already have and already know, their are plenty of less educated people out there who have less who are doing so much more. What is my DEAL!!? Stop focusing on what i need to fix: "all i have to do is fix that or change this or be more this" always trying. trying to be this something else that i view as better instead of just being, just doing, just having.

DAMN How many more years need to go by!!!

SO I threw the book down and got up and felt compelled to "do". I cleaned my kitchen and then went on a 15minute jog, ran to the bank and did some errands. Then I thought, its okay to learn more, and get better, and expand beyond where i am, BUT i need to acknowledge where I am and be thankful for that. And know That I have alot to offer, and focus on what I have, nurture that, and watch that grow. You water seeds that already are in the ground and watch those seeds grow and sprout and bloom, not patches of desolate land hoping something will turn up.

Not only do I have seeds in the ground already, but fully blossomed rose bushes, that just need some tending to and grooming.

I 'm waking up!

SO no more focusing on problems, weakness, and things I need and don't have. Now I'm being thankful for what I have, and focusing on that!!!

Visualization of Spiritual, artistic comunity

visualization of ownership & mutual effective partnership

visualization money

visualization Stylish comfortable wardrobe